I am shell-shocked by the sheer hit and hellish hack of human hurt.
Our poor fragile bodies —
These gorgonized, agonized and amplified mélanges of terrified imperfection.
They break, they ache, they bake.
And yet …
To even have a body.
To even move through space and time.
To think and feel, to be alive,
To eat and laugh and love, to lose and gain again.
This, just this,
This contextualized semi-fixity of bodily permanence.
This gorgeous dire-defended-dangling sentience.
This good-sick, savory-bland, sensuous-torturous, bright-dark vivacity.
This brief, brilliant, barreling, biting dash through the thin air of our spinning, sun-smacked, rain-dashed, poxed and rashed blue planet,
This living this of this and this and this.
Ahhhhh, I love this gift of zing and zap and zest.
To lean and tilt and rise and soar.
To breathe, to see, to weigh, to choose.
To be completely and severally existable within the grace-filled, love-packed, picked and wrapped resistible.
Ah and ah and ah,
I love this life paced out within the imperfect-wonderful, immediate-possible of the material miracle.
Modern Soliloquies & Pastiches 